I just am NOT dealing well with the latest installment of hurry up & wait (the story of our lives). I am so past being extremely frustrated, I have been bawling for like 20 minutes, and i don't know why. it's like something just snapped. I think I'm even going to break down & tell  my mom that we have been hoping to cycle, etc and what all has gone down. i was hoping to keep them a bit out of the loop bc a) it's easier if they're not always asking questions and b) surprise factor, but fuck it. i just can't. J's got his own issues right now with work and such, and he 'has trouble dealing with my depression' so i'm not getting what i need on that end.

so i'm sorry for not being supportive of anyone right now, but i can barely support myself. i have a dr's appt on thursday, and i'll see whta she says about either upping my antidepressants or ???

ETA: a few hours later, lunch with hubby & a nice drive through the Valley, and I'm feeling a bit better now. I'll still be talking to the dr. on Thursday though...  I think the cry was just needed, y'know? I've *wanted* to cry for days now, felt good to get it out.... blah.