Sunday, October 25, 2009

I just am NOT dealing well with the latest installment of hurry up & wait (the story of our lives). I am so past being extremely frustrated, I have been bawling for like 20 minutes, and i don't know why. it's like something just snapped. I think I'm even going to break down & tell  my mom that we have been hoping to cycle, etc and what all has gone down. i was hoping to keep them a bit out of the loop bc a) it's easier if they're not always asking questions and b) surprise factor, but fuck it. i just can't. J's got his own issues right now with work and such, and he 'has trouble dealing with my depression' so i'm not getting what i need on that end.

so i'm sorry for not being supportive of anyone right now, but i can barely support myself. i have a dr's appt on thursday, and i'll see whta she says about either upping my antidepressants or ???

ETA: a few hours later, lunch with hubby & a nice drive through the Valley, and I'm feeling a bit better now. I'll still be talking to the dr. on Thursday though...  I think the cry was just needed, y'know? I've *wanted* to cry for days now, felt good to get it out.... blah. 


  1. i'm so sorry, C, that you're having such a hard time right now... don't be afraid to ask for support from your mom... you deserve a little lifting up from someone who cares about you...


  2. So sorry you've been having a rough few days. I'd bet money that DGT is just around the corner and it is hormone related. Glad your day got better as it went on. You know I'm here. Hugs.