gaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Well now. Isn't this cozy y'all?

So, things have been progressing on this end kinda rapidly lately. Some ducks jumped into a row all on their own, much to my surprise, and now we're on the road to IVF. Like really on the road. Like, back to weekly acupuncture, doing testing (SFA & bloodwork) this month, followup at end of April, and maybe BCP in May. There is no wait list for the clinic, i've got money lined up for IVF + ICSI, and the medical plan will cover at least 80% of meds. Possibly more, depending on my timing with the pay & comp people (i'm eligible for our drug coverage as of Apr 27, so if i can get the papers signed & back to Ottawa before May 1, i'll have coverage for June 1...). I suppose an extra month of BCP is worth the addtional coverage, but just another choice to make. But I dye-grassssss, I dye-graaasssss (if you're lost to this reference, check this awesome you-tube clip here).

On top of everything, I was told today by two of the managers I work for just how busy the next few months are going to be for me. 'oh, XXX dept will keep you hopping for the rest of the summer' and 'oh, YYY is going to keep you running...' I can't do two positions worth of work really well, while only working 7.5 hours/day (and only getting paid to do one position). I mentioned that today, and while I know that my co-workers appreciate the work I do, I'm scared that the stress of trying to get everything done properly, and for when everyone wants it, could compromise our situation when we finally do get around to ER/ET. I will 'feel bad' for taking time off (if I need to) for ER/ET, etc. Christ, I might not even be working for these two groups come next month, as while the fact that I'm employed (until at least November) is secure, what I'm actually doing is subject to change as required operationally. Bahhh.

I know that we could wait to cycle until September, when things start calming down a bit, but my god.The ducks are (almost) lined up in their row, and we may choose to wait LONGER?? srlsly? We're coming up on our 2nd bench-a-versary, and I'm sick of always waiting for something. I know 'there's never a perfect time to get pregnant', as you hear TTCers say over and over, but bah. I just don't know. Maybe my hubby's tendency to overthink is rubbing off on me.